Random Thoughts

Here's the deal. Last night, I did not sleep. Once again, I had some random thoughts. I'd like to share.

You don't have to listen though.

a) Do Asians ever get cold?

b) If everything is in my mind, is there a way to drain it so that I will be normal again?

c) I don't know what will happen to my existence if all this fell to pieces.

d) I think change is the only way I'll ever be happy. It consumes me in fear of staying the same, so I make things change; sometimes without knowing.

e) I don't know what I'd be without drugs; I want to go higher.

f) It's time to start setting off the fireworks for the world

g) I really need to transfer soon. I don't think I can go much longer seeing you everyday.

h) I'm heartless; but I'm growing

i) I attract the wrong people.

j) If everyone were to stand still, would the world stop spinning in chaos?

k) If I gave up a long time ago, would things be the same as they are now. Or would they be better. This is the lowest of the low.

l) I feel betrayed; but I'm not. I feel anger; but I can't. I feel lost; but you found me. I feel empty; I am.

m) I don't have a clue about my future. Math is something I love, but I hate kids & I wouldn't be a good teacher. Photography is my passion, but I'm getting into movie making. Do I even have money for college? I'm trash to be honest.

n) blacks are the superior race in our school.

o) I don't need cigarrettes as much as I smoke them. They actually make me sick.

p) I'm someone I hate. I told myself since I was a little toddler that I'd never become this way. I have. I'm walking in her footsteps, & look where she is now. I don't want to become my mother.

q) I want to be someone but someone else.

r) I think I might need her back in my life. We've been talking again, nothing big, But she makes things better even if she makes things worse.

s) A shoe string is always too big for the shoe.

t) I see the blood on my wall & never want it to go away. I have yet to remove it or wash it off, it's sort of a reminder. Because you were crying that night; worried; scared. But you were there.

u) If I'm not around alot of people, I'm more depressed. I let myself get the best of me.

v) I think my heart is broken beyond control

w) I really never was out of control but I did mean what I said.

x) Tape doesn't do a very good job with silencing someone. You can just lick the tape on the inside & get it unstuck. Sure you'd be covered in your own saliva, but hell, it works.

y) I remember when I was young, I wanted to be with the 'in' crowd so bad that I'd do anything. But look at me now, I'm nothing like I was back then and I'm known for being me. I think I became someone.

z) The attempt, will be final when you least expect it. But it will be sooner than you think. I've got my mind made up.

-LiveLoveTy