Same Day Different Life

So things are looking up just a bit. I've gotten into a better mood & realized everything happens for a reason. Maybe this was just a test to see if I would still keep running back to her or not, But I really KNOW that I love Meagan with everything I am & even though I've dated others, she's still the only one for me.
She'll always be the only one for me. She's the girl that I've fallen in love with everyday since the 8th grade. She's make my heart beat so fast & my knees so weak all at the same time. I know, because I've felt it happen. & I know she loves me because if she didn't, she wouldn't put up with me the way she does.
So I give her props for stickin by me for so long. I know I've caused her pain & suffering, but when you make a promise to be someone's 'wife' forever, "till death do us part" is not only a promise, but a will & testement. I would go to the ends of the Earth for my girl & I am thinking she would do the same.
No one, nothing, no object, no piece of mind, no beauty, no damsel, no nothing, will ever compare to my feelings for Meagan Leigh Harrison. She is & always will be my one true love.
My Baby.

-LiveLoveTy

At A Loss

So, we broke up. Well she broke up with me, but honestly it was for the best. (my cat is currently eating a plant..) We both were way too different, it wouldn't have worked out in the long run.
I really hoped it would. But things/people come & go all the time.
& if I hurt her as much as she said I did, then it realllllllllly was a good thing that we broke up. I wouldn't want to put her through so much pain. I hate hurting people & she would be crying 24/7 instead of 23/7, which I really couldn't handle.
Tears, yeah, they aren't my thing. Details also. Fuck man, relationships too. I hate commitment or showing I care. So really, I should stay single for a bit.
Or atleast until I know that I'm ready for a relationship & will stay in it.

I thought I would stay in this one, but she beat me to the finish line. So I lost. but that's okay. I wish her the best.
but it's like... Love is complicated & when you have someone like her, & someone like me, it's just obvious that it wouldn't work out.
Atleast we gave it a shot.
I really hope we could still be friends. But I doubt that will happen. It'd just be weird. Besides, I need a few nights to myself for a bit, or atleast with Victoria & Meagan, or HEY! Maybe just some friends.
If I still have any.


-LiveLoveTy

you know what I hate!?

I hate immature jealous girlfriends who think they can control you like you're some puppy. I don't work that way. I hate being tied down & when I am tied down, I don't do shit with anyone else. I don't cheat, I simply hang with friends. YES a couple girls like me but that doesn't mean I am going to run & jump on their vagina like it's a fuckin theme park. NO.

& It's pathetic how little girlfriends REALLY do trust you. It's like they say one thing, then they turn around & see you talking to a GIRL-friend & it's automatically "WHY ARE YOU FLIRTING WITH HER!"
This shit really fuckin pisses me off. I love my girlfriend. No doubt about it. Sure I don't show allllll of my emotions, but when I do show some, she better be damn happy because that shit is rare. I'm not a lovey dovey little sucking up pussy like she wants me to be. I am simply Ty. The girl known to be a player, a flirt, & one hotass dyke.

But reputation is one thing. I'm tired of being compared to all these silly little wanna bees who think they can start drama & be seen as "cool". It's not cool. GROW UP.

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I'm tired of dramatic attention whores. I wanna just go out & party or hang with some friends & have a good time. NOT be caught up in all this drama & have it ruin my night.

TONIGHT- Unsilent Night. I was having a damn good time with friends. Not my girlfriend, & she gets pissed. I've given up on trying to please her. It's fucking impossible. I'm tired as shit. THEN we fucking leave the show at 8:30. If you know me, you know I love to be around live music. Plano Centre is where I feel the best. I am the most happy & I never leave until the END of the show. NOT when it's little 6th graders curfew.

But I shrugged it off & left with everyone. DRAMA goes down at the coffee shop & cops get involved & I am just pissed to all hells end by now. I've got my girlfriend ragging on me for "flirting" with a drunkin dramatic chick. WHICH I DIDN'T. And I've got the drunkin dramatic chick crying her ass off & apparently she broke her arm & started compulsing.

Look, if you're ANYTYPE of drama, leave me the fuck out of it. I'm tired of dealing with all this.
I got out of my group of friends & tried to do my own shit for awhile, & they all seem to be looking for the next little fight to pick with me.

All everyone does these days, is start drama. Drama drama drama. FUCKING DRAMA.

after tonight, I'm done with nearly all my friends. All my associates. All of everyone.

This has gotten ridiculous.

So that's my rant for the night.

I'm gonna go watch Titanic with my grandma & get annoyed at her not being able to fuckin hear a word I'm saying.

Whatever.

Peace Chill Be Safe

-LiveLoveTy

Shall not repeat For I have reason to believe there is more to Life

In this closing I leave you with every last word that I have spoken before you. I shall only repeat this once, if you live your life based on judging others and being wrapped up in pain, you're life will end as you know it. Whatever does not feel right probably isn't right. Live without regrets, yet live with a conscious even if those around you do not. Every human being and animal has a heart. Do not purposely nor subconsciously forget that. Listen to what your heart tells you. And when you realize it's time to grow up, then by God, grow up.

-LiveLoveTy