Chasing Pavements

I'm chicken. When it comes to you, oh my god, you make my head spin a million times.
I can't remember the last time I felt this way.

You're all I think about,
& you don't even know I exist.

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AH Lovestruck.

-LiveLoveTy

You'd Think;

The day would never come when you can see someone you once shared your world with, day in & day out, & not really mind their presence so much.
The memories don't come back anymore & the feelings mixed with tension have gone away.

Sure I can't look you in the eyes, or even at you,
but still, I've moved on.
& this time, I really didn't do anything wrong.

& it's breaking up my heart,
(I don't love you anymore)

-LiveLoveTy

Sometimes;

Sometimes a mystical fairytale world isn't a fairytale. There are times when the happily-ever-after you always dream of when you're little, comes true. You meet your Prince Charming, fall madly in love, & have it all.

Then there are those stories that go to hell.

-LiveLoveTy

Everyday I'm Gone

I've been without the world at my fingertips for 5 days now. I haven't been in contact with nearly anyone. It's been good. Everyday I'm gone makes everyday I'm back, seem like it's a new start. Even though, when I do get back, things will be just the same, I'll just feel differently about them.

I've learned that one of the greatest things in life, is the mind. Everything you do, everything you are, is based on the way you think. Being cooped up & alone has given me the opprotunity to think & learn more & more about what I truly want.

Truth is, I don't really want anything. I've never wanted a certain thing. It's always been numerous. But now, I can see, that I don't truly want or need anything.

Love, sure it's something I would like to have, but I don't want it at the moment.

Life, I'm here to live for something amazing. Myself.

I'm so much stronger now that I've taken sometime to myself. I like it. I really really do.

Love me? Hold me? Breathe me? I'm not in search of anything that comes close. I just want to relax & go a day without stress.

What makes a person? The obsticles they go through? The people they surround themselves with? No, their mind.

-LiveLoveTy

Live Intentionally Fuck Everyone

L.I.F.E

Live Intentionally: To live is to breathe every moment in like it was the last. Do it intentionally so you know you made the best out of every situation. Accidents happen but so do miracles. Waiting isn't needed. If you want something, get it for yourself.

Fuck Everyone: Don't take peoples smack talk & don't conform to reality. Stay in your world if that's where you're comfortable. Clones are not what life is about. Be different. Show people the wonders of your mind. Express yourself in ways no one could ever imagine. Be who you were born.

Here's my two cents. If you are going to live in the society we have today, be prepared to get knocked down once & awhile. But the point is to bring yourself back up to the strong person everyone can be. Everyone has a glimmer of light they have yet to release. It's okay to be free & reckless. What's life without a few million risks. Throw your heart to the world just to see what happens. Don't expect to get it back. Build a new one & do it all over again.

-LiveLoveTy

Robots; In Love

That one totally caught me by surprise. I'm not sure if I was ready for you to say that to me. It made my heart pound & gave me chills like no other. But then I started doubting myself again & acted like you didn't say anything. Maybe that was a mistake.

I can't say it back, I know I can't. Cause I'm not.

That night, scared me. You wouldn't let go. You wouldn't stop pulling. You wouldn't take no for an answer. You reminded me of someone who I'll never be ready to face. I knew you had the power over me, & I could only nudge away but it made no dent. I wanted to lash out & scream for help, but I don't think it would help anything. You just... really... really scared me. You're my biggest fear now. Please, don't ever do that to me again.

& now, you tell me this like a robot; in love. I'm not a kid, I don't need to be taken care of. It'd be nice to be treated right, but I'm simple to please. Don't figure me out, you won't like the outcome. Just know me. Know who I am. Spend time with me.

We'll always have to wait & see what happens between us.

p.s. It does matter what you think. It always does.

-LiveLoveTy

Tell Me The Wrongs; I'll Tell You You're Right

Wrongs;

Falling inlove with you at first site.

Never being able to let you go; Never wanting to.

Telling you every last word when you can't hear a scream.

Trying so hard to prove my love when it doesn't matter.

Falling for her instead; Never letting go either.

Looking for someone other than you; Anyone.

Remembering everything that's ever been done; spoken; between us.

Pretending to be strong; hard headed

Letting you watch me wallow in my own self guilt; dropping so many tears; For nothing

Giving me a reason to never want anything from anyone.

You're Right;

I didn't try my hardest

I didn't love you enough; There was nothing left.

I walked away too many times; so did you.

You're gone.

She wasn't you; but she is something.

You'll never be ready; You've got to take this risk. It'll be different.

I'll never be good enough

I'm just in a bad mood right now. I probably will delete this later if I feel it's necessary. Right now. I WANT to wallow in YOUR self guilt. Watch it; watch you; watch everything. Await the day something new happens. Tears stop; fall; untouched; A smile brings anew; Happiness; Light; ....Hope

-LiveLoveTy

If I'm Gonna Fall; I'll let you know

In the presence of a person you once gave your everything too; watching her watch her new love; her new everything; Seeing that spark in her eyes as it lights up into a firey wave of love; Knowing she used to look at you that way; No longer though.

It leaves you with a heart attack. Not of jealousy or need for them back, just because the memories & the intensity you felt for one another. How it was lost so quickly or regained in a flash. Everything starts rushing back.

Missing is different then actually remembering. I remember. I remember every breath; every step; every word; everything about her.

If love is a word that you say, say it; I will listen.




-LiveLoveTy