How can I be so stupid? So blind...to my own feelings. The feelings that are kept inside my own body. My heart, my soul, everything. How can I just pass that up for one more kiss to a girl who could never compare to the real. What makes life worth living when you're not with the person you're meant to be with? Am I really meant to be with them then? What makes people so...so, inhuman. If you really love someone, you should be with them. If you REALLY love someone, you shouldn't be with anyone else, no matter the feelings. Love is love. You can't change what you feel or the feelings you have had when you're with them. What am I thinking? How can I so wrong? How can I let myself do the things that will hurt you the most? It's not purposely but it's in my subconscious mind that I do them. I can't control it. I don't know how.
But what if, things are meant to be this way. What if, I meant every word I said those nights laying in bed next to the girl that isn't you. What if, what if, what if, WHAT IF. The stupid 2 words that always trigger someones mind to wonder and think about WHAT IF this happened, or WHAT IF I did this different... as;ldfkj UGH This life, this world, you, me, he, she, we are all just merely players. We play a game to see who can be let down and hurt the most for everyone elses fun. We are all, sins. Sins, in a way that no one should be accepted. Yet,
none of us really are.
-LiveLoveTy.
