At A Loss

So, we broke up. Well she broke up with me, but honestly it was for the best. (my cat is currently eating a plant..) We both were way too different, it wouldn't have worked out in the long run.
I really hoped it would. But things/people come & go all the time.
& if I hurt her as much as she said I did, then it realllllllllly was a good thing that we broke up. I wouldn't want to put her through so much pain. I hate hurting people & she would be crying 24/7 instead of 23/7, which I really couldn't handle.
Tears, yeah, they aren't my thing. Details also. Fuck man, relationships too. I hate commitment or showing I care. So really, I should stay single for a bit.
Or atleast until I know that I'm ready for a relationship & will stay in it.

I thought I would stay in this one, but she beat me to the finish line. So I lost. but that's okay. I wish her the best.
but it's like... Love is complicated & when you have someone like her, & someone like me, it's just obvious that it wouldn't work out.
Atleast we gave it a shot.
I really hope we could still be friends. But I doubt that will happen. It'd just be weird. Besides, I need a few nights to myself for a bit, or atleast with Victoria & Meagan, or HEY! Maybe just some friends.
If I still have any.


-LiveLoveTy